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signalboost2023-01-07 09:49 am
suncryst) wrote in signalboost2023-01-07 09:49 am
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i do not know how active this community is but, as a dreamwidth user and someone who only uses closed off social media channels, i figured it would be best to try to share here and hopefully get some much needed help with my own situation. it is my hope that even though it is just after the holidays and people are probably very much fatigued financially, to get as many eyes on this campaign as i can muster.
i am a black, non-binary, disabled person who is currently experiencing escalating levels of harassment in my southern hometown. i have lived here for nearly a decade after a short stint living elsewhere. i initially left home to go away to school but the main motivation for leaving was to get away from my abusive father. i made the mistake of coming back after hitting hard times because i fell for the lies that my family actually cared about my well-being. while away, i experienced homelessness and an extremely abusive and traumatic relationship that even years later, i am still healing from.
i am the child of narcissistic parents with the added luck of being the family scapegoat.
despite no longer being in my early 20s, the abuse and neglect from my family continues and it seems that the smear campaign and assassination of my character has been so thorough, that i cannot seem to go anywhere without people being passive aggressive or especially rude, under the guise of taking up a protective mantle for my parents. even when i am at home i do not have peace. my neighbors constantly scream threats and other words of discouragement to me at all hours of the day in night. when i go out, sometimes people in their cars will yell slurs or other disparaging things.
this entire campaign has gone on for months off and on and i am at my breaking point. my mental health has been impacted over time and it seems like even the ' professionals ' in the area do not want to help me at all anymore.
if this sounds hard to believe, then you'll have to understand that this is a small town and gossip, rumors, and the all around conservative disposition of many of the residents here, leaves people like me someone who is gender variant, left-leaning, introverted and otherwise a stranger to most of these people a viable target. it's easy for a person that most presume to be female, to be in the wrong for ' disobeying ' her seemingly benevolent and ' protective ' father and family.
the truth of the matter is, that i lived a life as someone who was merely seen as an extension of someone else. i represent someone who has done the ultimate sin in my community, which is to call out the abuse over and over and ask for help from any channel i could for many years.
the well has dried up now. i am without allies that live nearby and it seems like a life of isolation and continuous psychological torture are all that's in store for me for as long as i remain a resident where i am. i am asking with everything i can muster, since i don't have the funds to do this on my own, to please boost this campaign and to please donate if you are able.
this is the context i wanted to give before sharing the gofundme, which is located here
thank you for reading, and i appreciate any encouragement anyone may have also.
i am a black, non-binary, disabled person who is currently experiencing escalating levels of harassment in my southern hometown. i have lived here for nearly a decade after a short stint living elsewhere. i initially left home to go away to school but the main motivation for leaving was to get away from my abusive father. i made the mistake of coming back after hitting hard times because i fell for the lies that my family actually cared about my well-being. while away, i experienced homelessness and an extremely abusive and traumatic relationship that even years later, i am still healing from.
i am the child of narcissistic parents with the added luck of being the family scapegoat.
despite no longer being in my early 20s, the abuse and neglect from my family continues and it seems that the smear campaign and assassination of my character has been so thorough, that i cannot seem to go anywhere without people being passive aggressive or especially rude, under the guise of taking up a protective mantle for my parents. even when i am at home i do not have peace. my neighbors constantly scream threats and other words of discouragement to me at all hours of the day in night. when i go out, sometimes people in their cars will yell slurs or other disparaging things.
this entire campaign has gone on for months off and on and i am at my breaking point. my mental health has been impacted over time and it seems like even the ' professionals ' in the area do not want to help me at all anymore.
if this sounds hard to believe, then you'll have to understand that this is a small town and gossip, rumors, and the all around conservative disposition of many of the residents here, leaves people like me someone who is gender variant, left-leaning, introverted and otherwise a stranger to most of these people a viable target. it's easy for a person that most presume to be female, to be in the wrong for ' disobeying ' her seemingly benevolent and ' protective ' father and family.
the truth of the matter is, that i lived a life as someone who was merely seen as an extension of someone else. i represent someone who has done the ultimate sin in my community, which is to call out the abuse over and over and ask for help from any channel i could for many years.
the well has dried up now. i am without allies that live nearby and it seems like a life of isolation and continuous psychological torture are all that's in store for me for as long as i remain a resident where i am. i am asking with everything i can muster, since i don't have the funds to do this on my own, to please boost this campaign and to please donate if you are able.
this is the context i wanted to give before sharing the gofundme, which is located here
thank you for reading, and i appreciate any encouragement anyone may have also.